Dream...

God, show me the best way I have to go, I don't know where I wanna go and which way I will choose, everything seems messed up where as too many dreams, passion, hope but, it coincides with my much inability causing I can't reach my dream. I realize it can't be instant to be real, it's not a  fairy tale even drama that everything will come true as right as possible. I know I'm too naive, that wants everything occurs fast. I'm just ordinary human who wants live my life and family happily. God, show me your way to reach my dream. Give me chance to make them happy during there's the time...

Stranger Dream

Last night, I dreamed of you and me. At that time we have getting married. In the middle of our marriage, I loved another man as I love you. Both you and him worked in the office, but at the different place. I met him when my first working at that office.  But there was something strange between you and him, you and him were the same, not really different,  it meant he was you too. The differences was just I wasn't acquainted with him but I loved him as I love you before we had our relationship. I felt my heart beating and also happy when I was near him. Exactly, the feeling was the same perfectly as I've felt in you 7 years ago when we didn't recognize each other. That was my stranger dream, I love two mans, but both of them were the same, both of them were you. I think I miss our moment at years ago till I dreamed it. That was happened because I love you so much and you're the only one for me even in my dream.  Even if I have to love and choose another man, he's just you, no one can replace you from my heart...

Please... just give me a little time,,, I need a place to shed all of my tiredness...

For not being appreciated makes me feel very dissapointed and angry. Don't you think if the situation is reversed in you, do you feel the same as me?? I just want a little time for us to speak , out from your bustle or activity. May be I have to leave you for a while so I will know how you feel your days without me...

trying to collect the spirits for undergoing this weeks exam. Everything seems to be messy and cold, that's mixed in each other.  It's so hard but must do. I feel so weak, not having any strength to up, nothing could make me up to face all about these. Ok, may be I have to sleep now. Good night everybody, good night my sweetheart...

Facing the next three exams this week.. it makes me feel so tired for just thinking it without learning. How it will be if I try to learn. hmmm.. It must be very whirling T_T

too much hope or too much stupid enough? How can I  usually hope the impossible thing happened!!